Journal?

Lately I havent been doing to well on writing in my journal. i once did it for years, every day. Which i think is exactly the reason why i cant keep it up. now i hate it. despise it!! but maybe i can use this as my journal. id have to make it more...closed to the public, more private, but whatever. i ask CHACHA questions about my problems. i don't often like the answers i'm givin. such as "Dont go chasing waterfalls" and "No there is no cure for senioritis". well thanks for nothing cha cha. senior skip days are over and im going back to school tomorrow. i havent been to school on an A day since monday. last monday. man am i in for a homework load! i already brought all of my stuff from b day home! couldnt even fit it all in my backpack. funny how the time when i care least about homework and grades, i get the most and it counts the most. Stupid school system. who came up with this crap? im going to bed. and i dont want to wake up until July. stupid internal clock. i hate your face and your hands. ...mleh!
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Bored out of my mind and falling slowly

hello. im bored out of my mind and fAlling slowly. i dont care anyMore. I dont care about school. I doNt care about my future. i dont care about anything except...weLl i cant tell you that. just knOw that it pretty much runs my life and it has for years. i dont know what to do about it. i cant get rid of it. tried many times. i cant stop it from growing. it grows anyway. and now it's starting to hurt and i just want it to go away. but at the same time i dont. its so close, so close to being done, oVer, finished, and maybe something grEat. but right now it's not and i'm impatient. i can't take it anymore. i'm falling slowly.

Clementines are hurtful

My father had the audacity to throw a clementine at me yesterday. What started out as a innocent game of catch with the small citrus fruit turned to a battle for my life as I know it. I passed it to him. He got that look in his eye, the one that warned me to run screaming. I did so but not quick enough. Just before I could run behind the adjacent wall, safe from fruity harm, he chucked it at me. It pelted me on my back. I fell in slow motion, landed with a thud on the ground, injured. Okay, I didn't actually fall, but I did grasp my back. IT HURT! I didn't think it would but that thing stung like the dickens! I lifted up my shirt to check for wounds and there was a perfect, red circle, about the exact size of a clementine.

Christmas!

I've had a great Christmas. Money has been shorter but we all were able to completely focus on the true meaning of Christmas. The presents were nice but they weren't the main idea, the focus, the meaning. I'll still tell you what I got though. I got Wii Fit Plus, Raving Rabbids (I love those crazy little guys!), a sushi plate (SPAMANGO SUSHI!), a cute bag for my scriptures, cute boots (great for Rexburg!), a game called the T-shirt Game, gift cards...and I think that's it. My friend got a car!! But I'm not complaining. I've had a car for almost two years. :) Jolyn and Todd are here but they leave tomorrow, leave for Todd's family. It's been fun. We went to McCall and played in the excessive snow. Jolyn took some senior pictures of me. She's amazing. She can make me look cute in a puffy snow coat! She also taught me to blog!! Now I have 2. Uh oh. :) I'm gonna go play LIFE now. LAter.