Journal?

Lately I havent been doing to well on writing in my journal. i once did it for years, every day. Which i think is exactly the reason why i cant keep it up. now i hate it. despise it!! but maybe i can use this as my journal. id have to make it more...closed to the public, more private, but whatever. i ask CHACHA questions about my problems. i don't often like the answers i'm givin. such as "Dont go chasing waterfalls" and "No there is no cure for senioritis". well thanks for nothing cha cha. senior skip days are over and im going back to school tomorrow. i havent been to school on an A day since monday. last monday. man am i in for a homework load! i already brought all of my stuff from b day home! couldnt even fit it all in my backpack. funny how the time when i care least about homework and grades, i get the most and it counts the most. Stupid school system. who came up with this crap? im going to bed. and i dont want to wake up until July. stupid internal clock. i hate your face and your hands. ...mleh!
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Bored out of my mind and falling slowly

hello. im bored out of my mind and fAlling slowly. i dont care anyMore. I dont care about school. I doNt care about my future. i dont care about anything except...weLl i cant tell you that. just knOw that it pretty much runs my life and it has for years. i dont know what to do about it. i cant get rid of it. tried many times. i cant stop it from growing. it grows anyway. and now it's starting to hurt and i just want it to go away. but at the same time i dont. its so close, so close to being done, oVer, finished, and maybe something grEat. but right now it's not and i'm impatient. i can't take it anymore. i'm falling slowly.