Thursday, May 6, 2010

We have something in common, sky. I'm blue too.

The sky is so blue today, the clouds so white. The sky is my favorite part about this planet. I love its wrath, its beauty. And today its beauty was trying to persuade me to be happy, but I think I've forgotten how. Yes, I smile, I have moments of joy, but my eyes water when I yawn and sometimes it is my excuse.

My dad asked me about my senior trip, a trip which, traditionally, is some sort of road trip taken with a group of friends after graduation. I have a car. I have a road. I have numerous destinations I would love to go to. I'm just missing friends. When he asked, I couldn't think of anyone to go with, at least not anyone who possibly could. I have close aquaintances or casual friends but no one close enough, in distance or relationship, to accompany me on a senior trip. We aren't as close as we once were and I couldn't imagine going anywhere with them. My older brother couldn't either. The only person he was close enough to was a girl and great lengths were taken to keep a sort of chaperone but they were able to go together. I don't think that could happen for me though. It...it just wouldn't work out. So I guess I'm staying home.

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